Friendship

I was once a very naive person who used to treat almost everyone who speak to me for more than 30 minutes as best friend. But more than often, these relationship were not reciprocated. And due to many mistakes that I made for the past few years, I've lost a huge bunch of whom I used to call, my friends.

It seems childish that at my age (28!), I still have problems identifying who are my real friends.

I used to have a really close friend whom I shared my thoughts with. Someone I appreciated very much. I knew her since high school days. But due to some drawback and misintepretation, she ended up cutting all ties with me. I was terribly hurt at first, but as time goes by, it made me realised that no matter how strong a friendship is, it doesn't last.

Up till this day, I am still facing with friendship that were not commensurated, which left me feeling really despaired. Despite the care I had and all the measures that I took to help, in the end, it felt that all along, I was just a mere nuisance.

Although I am pretty much dishearten by these, I learnt to appreciate those that I have now. Those who helped me and were there for me through thick and thin. Who lent their ears when I need to let out my sorrow. Those who've seen me laugh and cry.

And my husband once said, best friend will never avoid telling you the truth because at the end of the day, no matter how hurtful the truth was, it was for my own betterment. And they did it because they cared~

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Young Mother

I gave birth to my son when I was 23. Becoming a mother at such young age was not an easy feat. But I never in my life regretted my decision. And I've been telling everyone that, up till today, my biggest achievement in life is to give birth to my son.

Everybody says hi to Baby Sukorn

He is my inspiration and the reason why I became a stronger person each day.

Many young mothers would agreed that it is a difficult task to be a mother, even so when you are young. People are often very judgmental towards every single thing that you do. And sometimes it is really tiring and depressing to have everyone criticizing the way you take care of your own child. 

Since May 2012, I had been condemned numerous time for leaving my son with my mom in Butterworth. Everyone thought that I was irresponsible and I had it easy with my mom doing everything for me. Yes, I admit that with my baby away, I am free to do anything I want, I drink my time away till midnight. But how many of you knew how difficult it is to not being to see my son everyday? How many of you understand what it is like to not being able to be there for my son when he had high fever? How many of you witness those nights when I would cry to sleep because I miss him very much?

I may not be a perfect mother but I know deep inside that I love my son very much.

      To my mom, eventhough you can be really annoying at times, I thank you very much for taking care of my child and for giving him the best of everything. You are an awesome grandmother and I love you very much!

And lastly, to all the mothers out there, regardless of age, Happy Mother's Day to you too.

P/S: And oh! Happy Mother's Day to myself too.

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My GE13 Story

On 5th May 2013, me like every other Malaysians anticipated this very important day. The day when we, the citizens of Malaysia, get to choose the leaders who we think deserves to be the government of Malaysia.

And as a first time voter, I was more anxious than ever. But before I start writing about GE13, let me share with you about my general election story during my younger days.

When I was much younger, I didn't really knew much about election. I never understood the general election frenzy. I did not get the buzz. All my mom told me was, "If you don't vote during election, bank won't approve your loan when you intend to purchase a house in the future." Which was pretty much untrue as you and i know it. But being a much younger me, I believed it wholeheartedly and really thought that was what general election is all about. 

My father, who is a DAP supporter, on the other hand, never bothered explaining why he voted. Well, he was never home much anyway, so let's just skip his part.

So, the younger me was basically just plain ignorant and un-educated on Malaysia's economic and political status. I didn't even register to vote during the 2008's election, I was 23, still ignorant. Perhaps, situations were not so horrendous back then for me to take notice. And yeah, I was a The Star newspaper reader back then, so I was pretty much blinded by the one lies after another. I was deceived into believing that our economy is growing robustly and our politicians are angels sent from heaven.

Fast forward to 2013, with the help of social media sites, I have gained better insights and my eyes are finally opened wide to see what is actually going on in my country. Corruptions, frauds, power abuse, cronism, etc. I finally understand what the hype is all about.  

 I travelled back to Butterworth right after work on 3rd May 2013 with a mixed feelings. Excited, worried, happy and at the same frustrated reading news after news about the dirty tactics played by the current goverment to secure more votes.

So when 5th May finally came, I walked over my polling station at SJK Tamil Mak Mandin, which was 2 minutes away from my house in Butterworth. I was anticipating a huge crowd, but to my amazement, the school was pretty much empty. It was noon the time I casted my vote.

With no access of internet, I was pretty much left in the dark on what was going on in other states. Eventhough there were updates on national news programs, I knew too well to not believe in anything reported on by the mainstream media.

7pm onwards, me and my mom, left with no choice, had to rely on the national news for the election results. Results from Sarawak and Sabah were reported first. And I was really nervous because the opposition was trailing slowly behind BN.

At about 10pm, I had to leave to the train station to catch the train back to Kuala Lumpur. So once again without any internet connection nor TV, I was not aware of the election's results. I kept my fingers crossed and prayed for the opposition to win because like all Malaysians regardless of race and age, we had enough and we are ready for a change. It's time for UBAH!

I reached Kuala Lumpur the next day at around 6am. And the first question that I asked my husband was, "Did PR won?"

And to my disappointment, BN won majority of parliament seats by cheating. Electricity blackout, additional voting ballots appeared out of no where, last minute recounts and many other filthy tactics were schemed by BN in order to win.

Words couln't describe the feeling of frustrations that every Malaysian had that day. But it was also this day that mademe realized that I need to do more besides voting. It hit me that it's time for me to play my part as a rakyat to secure a better future and better Malaysian.

I am confident that the Malaysians will fight together to achieve what we deserved because I strongly believe that "the sun will shine after every storm".

Ini Kalilah!

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Day Two At New Workplace

April had been a really good month for me so far. I've finally secured a job as a Marketing Communications Exec in an international pest control and hygiene company.

Ohai!

This is my first time working in a corporate world where everything has to go by the standard operating procedures. And honestly, I find it a little overwhelming and have yet to get used to it. I'm too used to work in a small scale, relaxing and fun working environment.

Take WG for example, there were only four of us in the same office and we were free to chat, joke, laugh out loud and sometimes sing and dance in the office. Our office was always filled with fun and laughters. Even during our lunch time. I doubt I will be able to create the same atmosphere over here as we are sharing the same office with 50 other staffs.

Where I will be seated on the first week

On my first week, I had been scheduled by my superior to join the company's induction program. It is pretty much like an orientation where a representative from each department comes over and do a presentation on what their department is about, what are their roles in the company and what are their working procedures like. It was pretty awesome as I am able to get to know the organization and the people here better. I'm actually waiting for the next presentation on the company's cash management while I was drafting this blog entry on my notepad.

In the next three days, I will be joining the service technicians and sales personnel on a field attachment to see how things are done outside of the office. I am super excited but also worried at the same time. My team mates assured me that it is going to be a lot of fun so I'm keeping my fingers crossed!

View from the meeting room

Oh yeah, I was totally astounded when I found out that staffs are NOT ALLOWED to use the company's wifi on the mobile phones. Oh bugger!! Tsk..tsk.. tsk..

My working attire!

And the best part about working here will be, there a shopping mall RIGHT BEHIND the office building!!! I can't wait to go shopping after work! It's super awesome!!!

UPDATE!:

I went and walked around the mall right after work and found out that this mall is one of the LOUSIEST MALL that I've ever been too. Hands down! So.. boooooooooo!

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Fashion Illustration : Red Evening Gown

I've started sketching since 2008 by watching tutorials on Youtube and endless practice. And fashion illustration has turned into one of my favorite free time activity. But I came to realized that all my sketching have had the same posing and style.

So I told myself that I need to improve my sketching especially on the posing and color rendering. After 2 days of drawing and rendering my draft, here's the final illustration.

I have got to admit that this is my best illustration so far. And I love it so much, I've planned to print and frame it up.

So red and so much love!  

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Chic Work Wear With H&M

Since its first opening in Kuala Lumpur last year, H&M has remained as my favorite shopping spot. And truthfully, I have not been shopping else where since I started working in WG, which is 10 minutes walk away from H&M's outlet in Lot 10. I still remember when there are times when I would walk over to shop for new outfits before starting work at 11am. Madness.

Here are some of my purchases for the past three months. 

Leopard print shirt, peacock green skirt, silver top, blue pants and boots

White t-shirt, both necklaces and blue shirt

And while working in WG, I usually go to work wearing really casual hip outfits ranging from colorful pants to crazy skirt in bright colors.

But now that I am about to start a new job in a corporate world, I am required to wear something more formal. And that means.. SHOPPING TIME!

With the Dressing Room application in H&M's website, I've created a few looks that I would to carry to work. I always believe that formal wear doesn't have to be boring. It can be super chic too. 

Pink chiffon blouse paired with a black skirt with embroidered details.

Yellow sleeveless top tuck in a cardigan with a cute beige skirt.

Blue chiffon top with a linen trouser in dark grey. Paired with a pair of electric blue pumps.

I love this a lot. Red shirt and blue jacket with black fitting trouser.

Pencil skirts do not have to be in boring black all the time. So one of those days when you want to cheer up the atmosphere in the office, you may wear a colorful skirt but match it with a plain dark color blouse. Nothing too crazy.

By the way, if you would love to create a look book like this, you may do so by clicking on DRESSING ROOM on H&M's website.

I have been resting since 1st of March and now that I'm all energetic, I can't wait to start work on Monday! Woohoo!

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Fashion Illustration : Purple Ball Gown

I have not been doing any sketches since I started working like three months ago. So now that I'm unemployed, I just have to grab hold of that pencils and start sketching again. 

Here's an evening gown illustration that I've done after months of hiatus.

A ball gown with black tulle wth mermaid silhouette on the inside. This piece was inspired by a client's wedding gown that I altered a few days ago. It was altered in such a hurry that I've totally forgotten to snap a photo of it. What a waste because her gown is so so beautiful!

By the way I totally dig the cute bob with purple highlight on the fringe. It reminded me of the hairstyle that I had three years ago.

Mushroom Head

Have a nice weekend!

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